Edmund Clarence Stedman, ed. (1833–1908). A Victorian Anthology, 1837–1895. 1895.
John Davidson 18571909A Ballad of Heaven
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The world passed by with lofty look:
Sometimes his eyes were dashed with tears;
Sometimes his lips with laughter shook.
And in a windy garret starved:
He trod his measures on the flags,
And high on heaven his music carved.
For always on the midnight skies
His rich orchestral score appeared
In stars and zones and galaxies.
The moonlight was his lamp: he said,
“Listen, my love;” but on the floor
His wife and child were lying dead.
He deemed she heard with special zest:
Her death’s-head infant coldly eyed
The desert of her shrunken breast.
I tremble as I touch the page
To sign the sentence of the sun
And crown the great eternal age.
The winding-sheets are ravelled out
That swathe the minds of men, the sins
That wrap their rotting souls about.
With silver trumps and golden drums,
And flutes and oboes, keen and strong,
My brave andante singing comes.
The frame of things is cast away,
And out of time’s obscure distress
The thundering scherzo crashes Day.
My mighty music shall be scored:
On three high hills they shall have scope,
With heaven’s vault for a sounding-board.
Cover the child; good-night, and if …
What? Speak … the traitorous end of all!
Both … cold and hungry … cold and stiff!
Dear ones, be happy, hope is nigh:
We are too young to fall to dust,
And too unsatisfied to die.”
The woman’s body stark and wan;
And to her withered bosom prest
The little skin-clad skeleton.
He rocked them gently to and fro.
“No, no, my love, you have not died;
Nor you, my little fellow; no.”
And crooned an antique lullaby;
Then laid them on the lowly bed,
And broke down with a doleful cry.
Of her and me, the budding life,
And my great music,—all in vain!
My unscored work, my child, my wife!
And nourish some suburban sod:
My work, this woman, this my son,
Are now no more: there is no God.
And death’s cart waits: be life accurst!”
He stumbled down beside the two,
And, clasping them, his great heart burst.
Abashed and trembling for his sin:
I trow he had not long to wait,
For God came out and let him in.
Ruddy with haste and eager-eyed,
To meet him first upon the stair,
His wife and child beatified.
And gave him heavenly food to eat;
Great seraphs praised him to the height,
Archangels sat about his feet.
And led him to the brink of heaven:
He saw where systems whirling stand,
Where galaxies like snow are driven.
Through space; Time furled his wearied wings;
A slow adagio then began
Sweetly resolving troubled things.
As if with drums and trumps of flame,
And flutes and oboes keen and strong,
A brave andante singing came.
The frame of things was cast away,
And out of Time’s obscure distress
The conquering scherzo thundered Day.
Nothing is lost that ’s wrought with tears:
The music that you made below
Is now the music of the spheres.”